Feeling pretty discouraged. For one, yesterday was a completely hellish day for me, as was the day before, so this weekend provided me with little relief from the stresses of my week at school. And then there’s the fact that I tried to make this one bracelet twice but each time it broke apart when I was going to add super glue to the knot. This has never happened to me and I was just doing the same thing I always do. I’m not really worried for the other things I made to break because the super glue really turns the knot into a uniform ball of… uniformness. (…) But it’s discouraging to have something fail on you that you barely even like to begin with and then having the beads be completely lost in the mess that is this house. If I’d had this happen to me in the new home Oli and I will be living in I could have at least just gotten down and picked them up, but here? Forget it.
And then there’s also stress about this blog. I feel like it’s a little too… pessimistic, and personal, to be used as an advertising medium, which is what it was supposed to be when I had it transferred from one Tumblr account to another. Blogger’s looking good to me right now and it’s scarring me because I hate terminating blogs. They’re such meaningful projects and it’s a shame to let them collect dust and be broken. It’s almost like I’d need two separate blogs for work and personal life. (… well there’s a genial idea. Good job Tiff. 2 Months later.)
My plans…
1) Move out (OH GOD, PLEASE HURRY, HOUSE PROJECT!)
2) Try and get all the self guilt tripping about my horrible day yesterday out of my system for a while otherwise I won’t move on properly. (looks like this following week is going to pretty much suck. Obsessing over negative things. My favorite.)
3)… ah? The shop? I? Uh?
… Okay. Looks like there is going to have to be some more thinking done about the shop. Thing is I don’t like making jewelry. It’s therapeutic to do anything in a well organised fashion in this pigsty of a home. But as an hour, two hours, three hours go by… I dunno. I guess I could blame it on my low tolerance for “work” (work = boredom?). No one loves work. But it is making me concider my options. It’s making me wonder if I should just… sell all my beads for destash. (broken down jewelry - second hand bead lots for jewelry making supplies) Maybe even buy jewelry, break it down and keep selling destash. I don’t know. Seems like a time saving idea. No putting anything together. Other than… lots. Which pretty much does itself. (Sort out the beads. Add some beads that are themed similarly if there aren’t enough. Sell all the misfits in one giant inexpensive lot once a month?) But I do hope to be able to sell clay sculptures. And that just doesn’t go with destash lots at all. I’d probably have to make a second shop… This is all such a headache and I feel like I have wasted so much time and energy on an idea that has clearly not turned out the way I thought it would. And what will people think…? =S
Oh wow. I just discovered Teams on Etsy. Was about time. Well, hopefully this will help.
I love love love this shine that is only possible on dark skin. Gold, silver, subtly glistening, (I think I also saw actual glistening BLACK once, a black base mixed with white shimmery things I guess) all kinds, it’s like… the person is a soft warm mineral. Or a god.
I know I need to theme one of my paintings around this some day but I can’t imagine adding sparkles to a paint without having the sparkles crumble off at touch when dry. Or fall on to the rest of the painting, which is not very clean. I’d want the skin and eyes for example to be in pure contrast. Oh well. I’ll leave this to figured out some day.
I also re-beaded a few necklaces and adjusted their prices. They used to range between 9 and 19 dollars. And my bracelets were supposed to range between 5 and 10$. Here are the new solid prices:
Sublimation Iphone Cover Ipad Case Transfer by Heat Press (by asc365com)
This is a video that shows what I plan on starting soon. It’s called sublimation, which is a process I’ll be using to print my art on iPod cases myself & selling them on ETSY, instead of having them done & selling them on ZAZZLE for a high price. And the iPod case is an over-saturated product on the Zazzle store, whereas on Etsy it is one of many different kinds of products, an I think it is one that people like to look for. Yes, this does count as “handmade”, I checked it with some people in the community forums. As long as the item is not shipped from an exterior source, it seems to fit within the rules.
Head pounding without actually having a head ache. I don’t know how I am going to survive college if this is what adult education is like for me. The days are so painfully long. 8:30am to 4:10pm. I know in my head that this is a regular type of schedule for a girl my age, be it school or work. But coping with the exhaustion is a task from hell. I know it could be worse And I know it’s a similar sensation for all students and working individuals today, on this Thursday of December.
This Thursdays of December is apparently going to be my Friday. Finally have a dentist appointment scheduled for tomorrow morning. Not looking forward to them listing the horrors in my mouth. I am expecting several cavities, my broken tooth either being unrepeatable or having to schedule some kind of repair, and… one root canal. I intend to attempt to set my dental health back to square one after all of this. Toothbrush every night. I haven’t been raised to brush my teeth every night so picking up the habit has been challenging for me because it’s one of the last things I am likely to successfully remind myself in a day. But enough is enough. Besides, I am on my way to financial and medical independence which means I can’t afford the alternative lifestyle anymore.
Oh god. The bell rang. Forget about it, not ready for another hours. Each our feels like two today. Common Tiff, after this, it’s the weekend. Tomorrow is going to break the cycle. Dentist, Indian food resto with mom & dad, and afternoon to do whatever I need to do, or want to do, or both.
Beautiful wonderful Natasha Khan of Bat for Lashes. Wish I had time to make another fan art painting of her, especially with this idea of submitting art to themed groups on Deviant art, and how this is all connected to the possibility of selling my art on iPod cases. I don’t want anyone to think that money making is my main interrest. On the contrary, I think for me right now in this period of my life, if I’m going to be completely honest here, it’s kind of a drag. But at the same time, I have to admit, it is also the only thing keeping my fragile emotionalness from roller coastering the way it naturally does, the only thing that gets me going and thinking positively. Having every second of my time needed for some thing or another is what has been keeping me securely together. I am thankful for this battle to prove myself to the world. My capabilities, my creativity, and my ability to be a financially independent working person are at stake in everything I invest myself in now in this stage of my life, and it all comes down to my shop (shops if you include zazzle) and my art.
I don’t know if I ever even mentioned this on this blog, but my long-term career plan is to paint and sell prints (and perhaps use a heat press to distribute my art onto a few different kinds of items that are fun to have personalized, why not). If I’m lucky, this might include participate in galleries and/or events. That’s what I feel my calling is, because it is the only thing that I would give every bit of energy, patience, and perseverance that I have to make work.
